I hate the night, memories of past conquers my mind and my soul. And the present situation added on it. I can't sleep. They keep back bad memories of past. Things that I want to forget and bury beneath my soul. I've encountered so many sleepless nights from it. That's why I'm here, writing this post, hoping that this would lessen the feelings I felt.
It seems there's nothing I've done wrong with the past, but they keep on chasing me. I don't know what to do. Maybe there are things that I've not completely done or unfinished scenarios on my past. There are times that I sat alone and reminisce the things I've done, tears falls down my cheeks on unhappy moments and a smile paints on my face for the happy ones. Maybe I need someone to accompany me on times like this. Someone who would care for me and love me for who I am and what I am.
That's was all from the past...
For now, I also felt the feeling of emptiness, discontentment and failure. Emptiness, I always felt that there's something lacks on me. There are something I want but I can't figure it out. It sounds weird but I can't help it. Discontentment, I'm not contented for the life I had now, maybe it is right that others says that, "man has no contentment at all". As long as you live, there are so many things that you want to get and achieve. Failure, may this is the root of all that painful and sleepless nights. Maybe I wouldn't elaborate this because most of us knew things about failures. What I'm talking about is the failure that we get as we feel the feeling of love. Maybe rejection would be the right term for me.
All of that was because of the night. My lonely night. I hate the night. You might call me stupid, blaming the night for all of this. But I'm hoping that the end of this would come. Hope to have it soon..... :(
It seems there's nothing I've done wrong with the past, but they keep on chasing me. I don't know what to do. Maybe there are things that I've not completely done or unfinished scenarios on my past. There are times that I sat alone and reminisce the things I've done, tears falls down my cheeks on unhappy moments and a smile paints on my face for the happy ones. Maybe I need someone to accompany me on times like this. Someone who would care for me and love me for who I am and what I am.
That's was all from the past...
For now, I also felt the feeling of emptiness, discontentment and failure. Emptiness, I always felt that there's something lacks on me. There are something I want but I can't figure it out. It sounds weird but I can't help it. Discontentment, I'm not contented for the life I had now, maybe it is right that others says that, "man has no contentment at all". As long as you live, there are so many things that you want to get and achieve. Failure, may this is the root of all that painful and sleepless nights. Maybe I wouldn't elaborate this because most of us knew things about failures. What I'm talking about is the failure that we get as we feel the feeling of love. Maybe rejection would be the right term for me.
All of that was because of the night. My lonely night. I hate the night. You might call me stupid, blaming the night for all of this. But I'm hoping that the end of this would come. Hope to have it soon..... :(
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2 comments:
me too i hate the night can't sleep because of computer :-) lols..
btw, added this link too in my blogroll! :-)
hi there,
thanks for the add. can't sleep because of computer? hehehe,
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